There's something about laughing with you
And hurting you that's impossible to resist
I wish I knew what was so wrong about us
And I know it's on me
I swear I don't mean it
And I need to tell you this somehow
When is this going to be okay?
Are we ever safe?
I need to tell you this because
There's only so many people
I can laugh with
The way I laugh with you
You hurt me, too
Leaving me out to dry
But I'd never blame you
Or anyone else
Not your lover or your mother
Nobody but myself
When the lightning comes to strike me again
I know you won't be there to hold me
Or to have one last handshake with me
No, you'll either be watching
Or you won't be there at all
You have a life outside us
Outside this wretched world
When the flowers bloom past your feet
And the cracks of the stones heal beneath them
When the world shines behind you
Walking to that gorgeous moon of yours
As much as I want to walk with you
I have to stay here
There's no place for me
No podium for us
And no reason for me to walk beside you
I may hold out my hand
Don't you dare stop walking
Don't look back, either
You deserve that
You deserve a life outside of us
I wish I could've seen that sooner
But something consumed me
It was my hatred for you
Hindsight is the vision of the Gods
And tonight, the ink on the paper
Will show me the truth
I so very desired for what felt like eons
But the ink is blurred
The paper is warped
And now I don't know what to feel or write
In this dimly lit room
There's only one thing I feel now
Loss