I'm looking at your face right now
I'm looking at your lips
Your cheeks, makeup
Your hair
Your glasses, headphones
Your bare chest
Shirtless on a facetime with me
I'm looking at your stomach every now and again
When you stand up to reposition yourself
I'm looking at your cat when you turn your camera around
I'm looking at your bird pluck her feathers
I'm looking at you
I'm admiring you
I'm tearing up now
It's all this that reminds me
It's the faces you make at me
It's when you look at me
I'm reminded of when you and I were one
When I loved you
There's a part of my heart that still holds on
It has waivered and waned over the years
But now, it's returned
It's back, it's for you
Do I want to be yours again? Likely, the answer is no
But it's the thought of holding you
The thought of kissing you
The thought of being alone with you again
Sitting in your chair
You're so peaceful
You make me so peaceful
Even through my tears that I hold back
I'm looking at you
And you're looking at me
I'll smile and look away
Everything you do makes me happy, anxious
Your little repositions,
Your cute stretches
Your cute yawns
And your beautiful smile
Your body
I'm looking at your body
I want to kiss your tummy, your arms
Your cheeks, your lips
To lift your bangs and kiss your forehead
To hold you gently
And kiss you
From your lips, to your neck
To your chest, to your stomach
To more
I'm watching the ugly sides of you
"Bad angles" and whatnot
Watching you take off your makeup
But I don't care, because it's you
So I'm looking at your bad angles
So what
You're still beautiful to me
It's this desire to be alone with you
In that room you're sitting in now
Wrapping my arms around your back
Feeling your skin gently
Raising my arms to the backs of your shoulders
Kissing, kissing you now
The desire to be there, in that room
And feel your whole body
Admire your whole body
Burn that insecurity inside of you
We're tired now
Can we sleep on facetime?
And, how...
How is it that one facetime can make me feel this way
And why is it that I want so badly to be alone with you now
And I don't get it
You're in front of me like this
You're comfortable
That feeling warms my insides
And it's the fact that I'm looking at your face with love
Instead of looking at your body with lust
It's the fact that I want your lips against mine
That feeling is the reason why
I'm looking at your face right now
I'm looking at your lips
You and I
I want to explore this feeling
You and I
I want to explore us together
This is the first time I've felt this way
In a very long time
You and I, let's go somewhere
Somewhere we can cuddle
Somewhere we can chill
Be alone, just us
Somewhere no one will question us
Somewhere we can take pictures
Somewhere we can spend the day
And by the night, we'll be facetiming like this again
Somewhere I can be with you
And you'll let me kiss you
Even if it's just once
You and I, let's go somewhere
Somewhere I can hold your hand
Feel your hand
Somewhere we can interlock our fingers
Somewhere we can laugh together
Somewhere I can take your cheeks
And gently place our foreheads together
Somewhere I can raise your hand
Cup it on both sides
And kiss it gently
Somewhere we'll be free
Free from the noise of the crowds
Somewhere we'll be alone
Alone to make our crude jokes
Alone for me to admit that, even now
I suppose I still have feelings for you
I suppose it's complicated
Because when the call is over
We're saying I love you
And making kissing sounds over the phone
At this point, what's stopping us
From saying I love you in person
Holding each other
And kissing each other?
The truth is, you are
Because you're what I prioritize
I'll never make you uncomfortable
Not willingly, no
So when I ask to kiss you
You can say no
And I'll never pull you in
But when you say yes
When we're alone and comfortable
I'm ready to kiss you all over
I'll never make you uncomfortable
Not willingly, no
So when it's finally time
And we're finally together
Alone, bare
You can say no
And I won't touch your body
But when you say yes
When we're alone and comfortable
I'm ready to roll your eyes back
But when we're waiting at the bus stop
And when we're riding the bus to our stop
We don't have to kiss
Holding each other close is enough
But when we're alone
When you look at me
And you peck your lips like that
Alone in the elevator
When I'm alone with you
Brushing my skin against yours
Touching your waist, your hips
Your shoulder, your back
When you take me somewhere isolated
The library or... the elevator
When the door shuts behind us
When you pull me in and kiss me
Don't let go until the elevator stops
Later, I'll dream about us
Later, I'll think about you
Your bare chest against mine
Your bare thighs against mine
You touching me somewhere I'll remember
My face or... my neck
Somewhere that will last forever
Bebé, don't ever ask
Just kiss me, touch me
Have your way with me
And I apologize for the way I'll speak
But the thought of you
Your body against mine
Our hips against each other
Grabbing you by your waist
Kissing your neck from behind
Those dirty thoughts about you
It's something I can't help
It's for that, I apologize
It's just you that I'm thinking about
The facetime I'm thinking about
The elevator I'm thinking about
It's your eyes I'm thinking about
The way you flick your tongue at me
It's the way you want to be alone
When we're kissing
The way you want privacy
While I want intimacy
It's the way you look at me
And laugh to yourself
It's the way you forget
The way you remember things about me
It's the way your body
Is still so beautiful to me
It's the way your hugs
Still warm my heart
It's the way being next to you
Is enough to fall asleep by your side
Bebé, forgive me
But it's the way I desire your body
It's the way I desire your touch
The way I desire to be on top of you
It's the way I desire to be alone with you
The way I want privacy
So we can have intimacy
So I want more moments with you
I want more time with you
More kisses with you
Some intimacy with you
Mi bebé
You're all I'm wanting now
Paying more attention to you
Revolting at the void of you leaving
Even when I know you're not mine
There's a space here for you
There's a space in my heart
You're all I'm wanting now
You alone is what I want now
You and I need to be alone, now
Girl, I can't help myself
It's all I'm wanting now
Revolting at the idea of making you uncomfortbale
Loving your eyes when you smile at me
Loving your tongue when you stick it out at me
Loving your lips when you're kissing me
Mi bebé
You're all I'm wanting now
Paying more mind to your thoughts
Reminding myself you're not mine
Especially since my thoughts are getting carried away
There's a space in my bed for you
There's a space in my arms
You're all I'm wanting now
You're all I'm needing now
You're all I need, now
Bebé, make sure you tell me if I'm crazy
And tell me when you're uncomfortable
Bebé, make sure you tell me you want this
You're all I'm wanting now