I follow you
Flying south
Heading in some direction
I just want to follow you
Did you even know I was following you?
When I reached out to grab your hand
Did you even notice our interlaced fingers?
When I hug you
Do you even notice my affection?
Or is it just another hug
From another one of your friends?
I want to know more
I want to know you
So I follow you
I threw away a lot for you
Do you appreciate that?
Do you appreciate me?
Or is it just more acts of kindness
From another one of your friends?
You're different
I smile with you
And sing and dance with you
Like no other
And you aren't even mine
And I can't be yours
I could never be yours
I belong elsewhere
So why is it that it hurts so much
To hear that you like someone else?
Why is it that it hurts so much
That I'm just like family to you?
What hurts the most
Is this twisted swear to secrecy
Nobody can hear this wicked cry
Lest I be outcast again
And lose you again
Lose my lover again
Everyone again
A twisted loss
A wicked loss
So I don't know where my heart lies
Because I swore upon everything I love
Everything I've ever loved
That I'd never feel like this again
And betray the heart of my lover again
But it's so difficult
When you and I are the perfect match
When you and I sing
When you and I write
When you and I dance
When you and I might as well be
Partners in crime
And I'd treat you so much better
And maybe you would, too
I scream into the night
That plagues my backyard
Into trees or into sky
Then into grass I cry
Something shook me
A little drop of rain
I looked up
It was a flash
Quick, silent
Then came the second half
BANG!
The thunderous cry
Of the gods who came centuries before me
Before even my father or grandfather
It was deafening
Blinding
And my tears fell anyway
I let the cry of nature be my punishment
And then I thought of you
And how much I missed you
And I let the lightning that struck my heart
Be my punishment
It charred my insides
Burned my heart immediately
Destroyed my lungs
I couldn't breathe
It was like I was engulfed in flames
It burned a hole straight through my stomach
Creating a deep, terrible pit
I couldn't see, either
The lightning,
Tendrils of electricity,
Struck my retinas
Leaving me blind
I screamed out but couldn't hear it
The crash of the lightning
Destroyed my ears
I tried to reach out
And I felt the soft touch of your skin
I opened my eyes in fear
I'd never want you to see me like this
But you were there
And it was just you
You looked so beautiful
And feeling you was ethereal
You looked at me with a smile
Then tears started rolling down your eyes
As you looked me up and down
I was confused, I looked down
And I was missing
I had no other arm to call my own
No legs to stand up and hug you
Like I wanted to do so badly
Instead, I was bloody, bruised and battered
The blood from my stomach pooled away
And my smashed legs and sliced arm
Created too much blood
For my clothes to handle
I tried to look up at you
I tried to cry out your name
Cry out my true feelings
But I choked on my own blood
And my own heart saved me
From your imminent rejection
The blood pooled away
I looked as it drifted off
Wondering how all that came out of me
I had no strength left
I fell to the ground, crashing into blood
I'd yet to touch
All over my face, nose, mouth, eyes
Everything
But you took me in your arms
My severed body
You cradled me in your arms
As if I were your baby
You held me tightly
I cried as I passed
In your arms